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Monday, September 22nd, 2008
12:19 pm	I have an announcement to make. As of today I, Reverend Michael Edward Driscoll I, am founding the Universal Church of PLUR. Let us start here... Plurtarian Credo and Statement of Worship (the unknown prophet) FORWARD By. Reverend BlackPaw: This is a spiritual adaptation and modification of the “raver manifesto”. I looked at its words, and between the lines I saw a spiritual syntax. What fallow is what I found, within the manifesto itself; was its spiritual essence. Some of the original text is still present, and some reworded in to a religious context. We seek an emotional state of rapture and sense of euphoric elation for the precious gift of life that has been bestowed upon us all. We nourish our souls with love and it is that love we seek to pass to others. We seek to explore and express ourselves, as well as our faith, through the use of any technology that may aid us in our understanding. The conduit for our sermons is music. We seek it out with our body, mind, and sprit. We seek out knowledge in all forms and openly share it all. Though other may hate us, we shall hate none. Though other may dismiss us, we shall accept all. Though other may misunderstand us, we shall take pause; and with our entire heart, try to understand others. Though others may be unaware of our existence, we shall acknowledge all beings and offer them kind regards. We are one massive, one global family. We are a family that transcends time and physical geography. We are The Massive, One Massive. Many were first drawn by the sound. From far away, the thunderous, muffled, echoing beat is comparable to a mother's heart soothing a child in her womb of concrete, steel, and electrical wiring. We were drawn back into this womb, and there, in the heat, dampness, and darkness of it, we came to accept that we are all the same. We came to accept that we are all equal. Not only to the darkness, and to ourselves, but to the very music slamming into us and passing through our souls: we are all equal. And somewhere around 35Hz we could feel the forces of creation at our backs, pushing us forward, pushing us to push ourselves to strengthen our minds, our bodies, and our spirits. Pushing us to turn to the person beside us to join hands and uplift them by sharing the uncontrollable joy we felt from creating this magical bubble that can, for one evening, protect us from the horrors, atrocities, and pollution of the outside world. It is in that very instant, with these very realizations that each of was truly born. We gather in clubs, or warehouses, or buildings that have been abandoned and left for naught, and we bring life to them for one night; a Strong, throbbing, vibrant life in its purest, most intense, most hedonistic form. In these makeshift spaces, we seek to shed ourselves of the burden of uncertainty for a future. We seek to relinquish our inhibitions, and free ourselves from the shackles and restraints we endure in order to fit into the societies we are born in to. We seek to re-write the teachings that you have tried to indoctrinate us with since the moment we were born. Teachings that tells us to hate, that tells us to judge, that tells us to stuff ourselves into the nearest and most convenient pigeonhole possible. Teachings that tell us to climb ladders, jump through hoops, and run through mazes and on hamster wheels. Teachings that tell us to eat from the shiny silver spoon you are trying to feed us with, instead of nourish ourselves with our own capable hands. Teachings that tell us to close our minds, instead of open them, just so we will fit in to a life that leaves us feeling unfilled. Until the final sun rises we will dance fiercely with our brothers and sisters in celebration of our life, of our culture, and of the values we believe in: Peace, Love, Freedom, Tolerance, Unity, Harmony, Expression, Responsibility and Respect. And we will carry those values within us and share them with all creation, our hearts beat as one, and its sound will never fade. Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: is good for the soul. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, September 5th, 2008
9:14 am	In two days it will have been six years ago... that i tried to cancel my internet service with aol and they sent me 2 free passes to sixflags magic mountain. it was september 7th, 2002. there where 3 of us... they wanted to get on the ride with the highest first drop... they got on to the first train... there wasn’t enough room for 3... so said they would meet me at the end of the ride... off they went. the next train pulled in. i was the only one on it. 275 feet... is how far i would have fallen... if i hadn’t stuffed myself in to my seat. the price to be paid that day was a permanent back injury at the bottom of the drop. i guess it better than being dead, right? so my back is fucked up for the rest of my life because someone wouldn’t toss the free passes in the trash. (she fished them out of the trash.) i not pissed about it all (not anymore anyway) just really sucks is all. i found the parking pass again from that trip so i figured i would blog it so i’ll have the date someplace i could find it all quick and shit. so i end up with sciatica, no way it can be fixed. suck, but could be worse... i could be dead so i think i did alright on that exchange. gotta get ready for class. have a nice day. Current Mood: mellow Current Music: none right now (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 22nd, 2008
1:30 pm	Coming metamorphosis? as sent to me by Keen... "Tuesday, July 22, 2008 pisces Midknight, Current events are rapidly mutating. This is a quick change for you, someone who is used to things evolving slowly over time. The world will be shocked with the advances you are preparing to unleash." they have no idea... "unleash" seems to be the most fitting word that could have been used though. i'll see who i see at ivc fall 2008... Current Mood: amused Current Music: oldies off the radio... (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 24th, 2008
3:42 pm	Less human than human. the other night i was sitting behind my home thinking about myself, getting a handle on my new 6.0 os inside of me. (5.5 has been phased out) funny thing happened, i realized that i’m missing an organ, and i have steel parts inside of me. meat by the pound, i’m less human than some. my outsides match my insides. funny i almost had to die to reach where i am now. for some reason all this made me smile, then it spread, i felt happy. and i became fully aware of how good it feels to be me, then i emoted the feeling verbally (i.e. spoke it in gibberish) then fallowed it up by expressing the way it feels with thought. and that would be to say, “it feels fucking awesome.” got to get out for a while, felt hella good to be a way form the house knowing that everything would be cool when i got home. i like what i’ve become, and the more findings and new discoveries i make about myself, the more pleased i become. i know i’m on track. i just have to hold this heading and i end up where i need to be. Current Mood: happy Current Music: none (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, June 14th, 2008
11:55 am	The fires have died down... ...and the only vestiges of the smoldering, near skeletal remains of once was laughingly called, anyway on to what new in my life! things are good, near great. the last month was good. i got a lot of work on the computer done (still more tracks to go) and my son finished up preschool. i’m waiting on pre-kindergarten to start. scary pot are the bomb, and all gone now. mmmhmmhmhmhmhmm. another $20 and 30 nights (or more) and it shall be again. but i did learn a few things. the first is that its awesome being me, took me long enough to catch on! scary pot is worth the wait, and lastly that there are something i’m not meant to know until it’s time. i know that already, but it was really in my face, “no, we won’t tell you.” kinda thing. that’s fine, if there is someone out there with their plan C all ready to fuck my plan B and it was writ in the stars that it would be so, then that is that. in the time between now and then i’m going to enjoy the now for as long as i can. i just don’t really imagine that there is anyone worthy to stand as queen to the empire i plan to raise from the sands. (i really mean that, but not in the way you might think) i have more important things on my mind and more pressing matters to attend at the moment. so this update is done with and it’s back to my son and work. come to our event! Current Mood: mellow Current Music: none (Comment on this)
Monday, May 19th, 2008
12:38 am	. . . Current Mood: evil Current Music: none (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 15th, 2008
2:32 am	because i love you all... ( ... this much. ) Current Mood: evil Current Music: none. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 6th, 2008
5:55 pm	In today’s news... michael fell down at school again. what sets this fall apart from all the others he’s had over years was this one gave him his first shiner. my little boy is growing up. Current Mood: mellow Current Music: just the beats in my head. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 26th, 2008
12:50 pm	fuck the outside world. i had a feeling that today was going to be ass. i was right. the children’s fair was fucking bullshit and the people there made me want to be alone for the rest of my life. fuck people and fuck being happy. so the only thing for it is to stay home today and not leave my house. fuck the world right now. i don’t need it. -The Big Bad Cat Current Mood: lonely Current Music: Coreporation & Tieum - Poison in blood (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 18th, 2008
12:42 am	It was a good day. i got up, showered, dressed, and then took my son to school. after that i went to see my friend amanda. we had coffee and talked, and then i asked her how her romantic prospects were looking. so she tells me that there are none at the moment. :) i had decided saturday (while at a wicked sick house party) that i would stop being afraid of asking her if she would let me be her boyfriend. so i asked as best as i possibly could (considering how nervous i was.) if she would take me as her boyfriend. later i got to take her out for an hour (most excellent) to a friends house. there was a good group of us and a funny movie on the tube. it was a very good day. Current Mood: happy Current Music: none at the moment. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 27th, 2008
1:46 am	An odd memory to remember all out of nowhere. it was both the best day and the worst day ever. the best day ended with a mother’s knock on the door. for the first time ever in my life, i felt at peace. i’ll always be glad i got to feel that at least once in my life. but really, what an odd thing to remember just sitting out back behind my house, smoking a black, and listening to tracks that i’m going to work on, and tracks i’ve finished. then all out of nowhere, like someone pressing a playback button in my mind, the memory came back as if it had just happened the other day. that was a good day. :) -DJ Midknight Current Mood: nostalgic Current Music: Zombie Girl - Symphony Of The Living Dead (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 23rd, 2008
4:24 am	Today i was thinking about that movie american beauty... ...and about kevin spacey’s character, lester burnham. how he was happy and alive once. then it was lost to him for some time and he had forgotten what it was like. he was give a second chance to have it back and he took it. his time was short but it was well lived. the feeling that all left me with was, “it’s never too late to get it back.” i had something once with someone. i thought my chance for a family had come and gone. a wife, children, grandchildren... but maybe i’ll be given a second chance. because it is never too late to get it back. it’s only too late when your life is over. there can be second chances. it’s never too late. i would like to see this be true in my life. that one day i might have a family. i had hope once, and then it was dead for some time. again, there now seems to be a little hope again, signs everywhere and from a few friends and family, that if we put our two halves together we could have a whole, and no matter what everything would be alright because we would be together with our children. i guess what is meant to be, will be. here’s hoping. *fingers crossed* -DJ Midknight Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: \Claire Voyant - Love the Giver (Covenant Mix)(DJ Midknight gothcore remix) (Comment on this)
Monday, February 18th, 2008
2:18 am	Maybe I’m wrong. It would be the first time I would ever have been wrong. And it would be the most wonderful thing ever. To be wrong… Just this one time... Let me be wrong... Current Mood: Trying not to hope Current Music: Ray Parker Jr - Ghostbusters (Remix) (DJ Midknight Terror House remix) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 17th, 2008
1:51 am	I want to settle down, but I can’t. i’m not sure what i’m looking for. i thought i knew once. there was a time when i would have given anything just to be happy one more time. there is sadness in my heart, i know now that there is something that matters more now than my personal happiness, to be more exact, someone, my son. i’ve spent the last few years getting things in to place. i’m too old now and i’ve come too far to start over. i have to be an adult now and taking care of my son means more to me than being happy. i will do anything i have to do to see that he will be well taken care of when the time comes for me to die. and if i have to loose my one last chance... i’ll live out the rest of my painfully long life alone. my roots are here. if i were one to say something like, “god put me here for a reason.” i would have to say it. of all the places i could have ended up in it was here. i look back over the long years and i see i touched the lives and influenced a good number of them. none of it would have come to be if i wasn’t here. i wasn’t placed in the imperial valley chance. i was placed here for a reason and i have yet to do all of what it is that i am meant to do. we all find our selves in the places and with the people that we are meant to be with. the only choice is to walk the road that is before me. my only regret is that i’m going to have to walk it alone. well, that was a fucking weird ass free write. it really comes down to what should i do? try for happiness? or be a responsible father to my son? i only have one real choice. my son. -DJ Midknight Current Mood: pessimistic Current Music: Sahara Brightman - Phantom Of The Opera (DJ Midknight Dark Trancecore Remix) (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 13th, 2008
2:28 am	Minor update finished with yet another track. five down, nine to go. Current Music: Genitortures - Touch Myself remix (DJ Midknight Gothcore remix) (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 7th, 2008
2:06 am	Answering a question. there has recently come up a question about cerberus and my relationship. the answer is, no. we are no longer seeing each other. we still remain friends, so everything is cool. it was just time for our romantic relationship to end, not our friendship. i hope everything is well with everyone. plurr. -DJ Midknight The Big Bad Cat- Current Mood: mellow Current Music: Sahara Brightman - Phantom Of The Opera (DJ Midknight Dark Trancecore Remix) (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 18th, 2007
4:23 pm	So, I’ve been in and out of the hospital the last two weeks. yeah, almost died, twice. i would like to go in to some big long post about it but i’m not going to. i don’t have time enough to sit here and type it all out so if you really want to know you can call me. 760-353-7184 don’t forget to tell me who you are, i’m bad with voices over the phone. please keep in mind that i use dial-up, so if i’m online my phone will be busy. i have a bit of work to do and will be free and offline as soon as it’s done. plurr. -DJ Midknight Current Mood: hurtin' a good amount Current Music: none. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, November 30th, 2007
5:39 pm	Cold November Rain the weather is how i like it, cold, overcast, and raining. but still i’m not feeling the content feeling that i should have. a lot has been going on this year, thing, people, places... very little went as it should have this year. and now i sit here, trying to work on my tracks. i know the time i have to finish them in is almost enough, i have little time to spare, but i just can’t work right now. i’m not feeling it, and i can’t afford to get stuck like this… things feel wrong, and i don’t know if i can set them right. some people are coming over. better put on my “friends are here” face before they get here. Current Mood: discontent Current Music: none. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 28th, 2007
4:54 pm	well. as most of you know i’ve been doing the dj thing this year, more recently i’ve been working on remixing and developing new sounds. i just found out that there is a music industry term for what i’ve been doing; it’s called “producing”. so with out knowing it i stepped up from disk jockey to producer. who knew? i’ve only been in “the biz” for less than 8 months. i’m not yet hip to the entire lingo of it all. lol things are going well, i almost have my first 14 tracks complete. take a peek at some of my work as dj midknight. gotta get to class soon, more updates to come. Current Mood: busy Current Music: Elvira - Full Moon (DJ Midknight Remix) (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 15th, 2007
6:51 pm	What have I been up to? going to class when i have to, working on my remixes (6 more tracks) and my demo/ravive 2 set will be done. i went to a free rave last weekend, after it was shut down.... we we all went to venece beach. spent the night and most of the day there. much fun. now its back to work. i have to finish these tracks so that i can give my 14 the shine job they need before i spin them for a croud. plurr. -DJ Midknight Current Mood: busy Current Music: Bauhaus - Stigmata Martyr (DJ Midknight Gothcore remix) (Comment on this)